~My Brand Of Love Is Unforgiving~

XXXjeremyXXX

I light my cigarette with comfort...gently tucked between my lips. I light my match and covered the fire with the palm of my hand as i deeply breathed in the smoke that feeds me...i hold the flame in my fingers till it slowly died out...letting it go and watched it drop and shatter against the rocks into small charcoal pieces. Still as before i stand amazed everytime smoke escapes from my gritted teeth...drifting away in space. 

Maybe its a constant reminder for me that im still alive.

XXXjeremyXXX

~Top 5 List Of Saddest Songs About Relationships~

In no particular order...(because i just finished High Fidelity by Nick Hornby)

1) The Cure - A Letter To Elise

2) The New Amsterdams - Losing You

3) The Twilight Singers - Love
     The Afghan Whigs - When We Two Parted
          *this counts as one because its Greg Dullis' work*

4) Counting Crows - Walkaways

5) Radiohead - Thinking About You

XXXjeremyXXX

I'll hold ya close and i won't loose my grip
I'll let ya go if you'd promise you'd go down...

  

I'll gently let go of ya and lead ya where ya ought'ta be...

XXXjeremyXXX

Days drag by so slow these days and i take to every account every waking hour as it is and more. No one ever anticipated frustration to build up this slow yet so cunning...like cancer slowly metastasizing, flowing through my blood stream, contaminating my every organ till i wither away. Ive grown tired and weary of waiting...my body numb in the absence and lack of touch..her touch...

XXXjeremyXXX

I^{cant believe all this} shit I gotta put up to! fucking

people... all messed up... telling me all their stupid, trivial, and dumb ass problems! fuck it! get a back bone! if ya cant stand the heat get out of the fucking kitchen! hey! news flash! do i have the words "tell me your shit"stamped on my forehead?? fuck no señor!
I try not to eat shit for breakfast..but you shove it to my face anyway! Im sure this is pretty worse than getting balls full of cancer or pissing blood and needles. I'M JUST too FUCKING TIRED of you! ASSHOLE! 

Each night I breathe
and break into sweet sweat.
And I'll never understand...
that I'll never be as good as I think I am.
Ya see im your fool....
you own me...
I am yours...
no other.
I'm your baby, baby.
Oh I love you.

XXXjeremyXXX

I've gone through Heart Disease...
I've gone through Cancer...
I've gone through more than anyone should in this lifetime.
So dontcha ever down play my fear of dying....