December 5th, 2005
New Year
Went out with some old friends from highschool and college this past weekend. Ate out, walked around the city, talked...just what old friends do. We were eating chinese when my lady friend told me my ex lover for two years and eight months was gonna get married, now that just sucks. I broke her heart twice during those years together. Had/have this thing for leaving women...she introduced me to sex, hedonistic love making...she took my virginity away...she was good at what she did, and in return I gave her what she needed and more, till finally I ran to a dead end...if you know what I mean. I just ran out of lust to fuel the relationship...I ran out of love to lie to myself I can keep it going for four more miles. She loved me...and I loved her so much I just have to break her heart. Now, three years forward, I look back to old memories...she was mine, and now shes getting married to some engineer. I realize I don't have the liberty of throwing guilt to the floor. I was the asshole who went past the door.
When I write my music, I write about peoples frustrations, guilts, pains, desires....about things people only talk about behind closed doors. Now I know I was writing about people I hurt. The ball has dropped, and its going to the right field...going, going, gone. She hit homerun. My ska rocker girlfriend is getting married December 20, 2005.
Three cheers to a Happy New Year!
