July 3rd, 2007
What We Share
I had a dream that I was fifteen years old again
eleven years ago sounds so far away
but it still feels just like a heart beat
I was back in highschool
not too much mistakes done yet
I was wearing my uniform
on the school grounds
with everybody I know since elementary
Everybody looked so young and happy
doing what they do
I felt so light and full at the same time
For some reason
my father and younger brother was there with me
We were standing at the left side of the gym
and people I knew from college who became my closest friends were there too
I played
hid behind the metal beams
I looked at them and smiled
and they smiled back
Suddenly I felt this sensation that I can't describe or rekindle
I changed from within
and I felt this urgency
At that moment I didn't know
but I just had to move
I started running towards the hall near the gates
I felt my body gained weight
running took wind
and when I looked back
everyone I ever knew was gone
All I see are empty faces on the grounds
it scared me
the sky darkened
and the solid earth turned into mud
so I kept my pace
As I drew near to the source
the reason became clearer
and it made me feel sad
but I had to keep my pace
I raced flights of stairs
and as I reached the third floor
a sign was posted up on a wall
a name of a band
a title of their song
I'm aware they are foreign
and still their meaning escapes me
but I've made up reasons for myself not too long ago
I noticed my clothes changed
I don't know when that happened
but it too changed
I kept running till I got to the top floor
My chest rose rapidly with every breath
I slowed down
leading myself towards the brown door at the end of the hall
turned the knob to open
and I knew there was no turning back
I stepped in and the source surrounded me
filled me
and consumed me
