~My Brand Of Love Is Unforgiving~

BadKitty

   It is 7:43 AM Thursday and I am awake simply because I havn't gone to bed yet.  It could be because I had 3 cups of coffee at Kings with Manda around 6:30 PM ... but that caffiene isn't likely to have lasted this long. 

I just don't want to waste any time sleeping.

  I had my last education class Tuesday night and I'm TA-ing my final lab today at 2 PM.  I have no finals.  It feels good to be done, but I have a big change coming soon.  Part of me wishes I weren't student teaching come January, that I was going to return to class and a student's desk.  I know if I spend all break dreading the inevitable it will only make the first day worse...

 It isn't the prospect of teaching that bothers me.  I am comfortable being in front of the room, comfortable talking to 30 some little brains.  What bothers me is the time commitment I'm walking into and the coupled fact that I'm not getting paid for it.  

  During break I have to retrain my body to sleep like a "normal person,"  and get myself on track for getting up at 6:30 every morning.  That right there is the most dreadful and difficult part of student teaching for me.  The second most dreadful and difficult part  is knowing that I can't stay up late even once (not even on weekends) for the whole semester or risk throwing my body clock out-of-wack and starting a deadly spiral of exhaustion. 

   Three things I know for a fact about my upcoming student teaching. 

1) Getting up that early in the morning- I will be tired and ready for bed by 10 PM, no problem.

2) Between writing lesson plans and journal reflections I will NEVER get to bed at 10 without feeling like there is more work to be done, or that I haven't gotten to do anything for myself. 

3) If I had all the time in the world I KNOW I could be the best teacher ever.  I could have rock awesome lesson plans and still get plenty of sleep and still play all the video games and read all the books I want. 

  But I don't have all the time in world.

  It's exactly like we always said in college.  There are three choices: Work, sleep, and play.  But everyday you only have enough time to pick two of the three.  Some days you just work till you crash... I don't want to live like that for three months. 

  Because of this, right now I'm choosing to work and play and skip sleep.  That should make me nice and tired early tonight.   I guess I'm calling this my last hurrah.  The last all-nighter before I take 30 days to put my body and brain back in order.   So far tonight I have watched the newest Heroes episode, sent some emails, fooled around on facebook, read several chapters in A Clash of Kings by George R.R. Martin, played a few levels in Valkyria Chronicles, washed 3 loads of laundry, and collected some news articles for use as case studies in my classroom.

   I have a plan for this break to lose all my bad habits and start some good ones.  That should make the transition easier.  The only major problem: I am making a concious effort to change and Matt isn't.   He has the same bad habits and doesn't want to change because he doesn't need to.  How am I supposed to get in bed early when he's playing video games real loud?  That's a gripe for another day... anyway my plan invovles mostly my physical and mental health.

  1) Drink less coffee and pop- More water

  2) Sleep on a set schedule- 7hrs nightly

  3) Take at least one hour for myself every day - to read, surf the internet, or game

  4) Stick to an exercise plan

Edit:::  You don't have to read this whole thing it was mostly for myself.  But if you did I thankyou for caring. 

plasticsatellite

My new year's one and only resolution would be cutting back my salt and sodium intake. That means I'll stop binging on Boy Bawang or any salty (and spicy) cheesy junk food. But in the meantime, I'm still going to enjoy my huge bag of chips...

What about cutting back on caffeine, you ask?  No, I'm afraid that won't happen.

plasticsatellite

 You ask:

"Don't I have a right to be happy?"

And I ask:

"Why can't I have a right to be sad?"

boogiesan

Well it's that time of year again.  I put up the outside lights, only to find one string had a bulb out. It is hard to figure which one is burned out so you have to remove each one and start again.  I gave up but Chiko ended up cutting out a section and rewiring it so it works now.  Then she did the inside decorations.  I never touch them.  For one I have no taste and for the other I'm too lazy.  But she enjoys it.  So here we go into the holiday season with a bang.  Hope it is a good one for all of us.  I'll share some scenes of our decorations and tree here.

plasticsatellite

Fxk free days!

They get wasted.

plasticsatellite

Cynicism

How could I had ever let it grow on me?

How easy it was for me to let it happen...

And how hard it is to leave behind....

It has become my addiction.

plasticsatellite

I find it quite amusing how people could put in so much in their blogs that consequently lift their readers out of their boredom. And by this I mean substantial content. Even the subject matter isn't too deep or too important to be delved upon, these people cleverly manage to make them look more creative yet honest.

Well, just starting from their sidebars, I could sense their confidence with the amount of stuff they put in them, just to make themselves known to the world. They may not be that expressive outside their blogs; but it doesn't matter.

*Sigh*

Well, I feel a little jealous with what they can do with their blogs. I want to be able to write. I mean write good stuff. But ironically, I'm the one who hides her blog from the world. I don't really have any desire to be known. I don't care if someone reads my blog and it's okay if now one does. I don't even have a sidebar to begin with.

Oh well, let's just say that my blog has never grown from being my release department.

And I still think that nobody will be able to talk me out of it. Lol.

In the past, you've had to contact me to set your own custom domain. This is no longer the case - I've added a new page in the control panel (Settings > Set Custom Domain) which lets you set your own domain name. I've updated the documentation page with instructions on how to set-up your Tabulas to use a domain name.