November 21st, 2009
Ahhh Relief!
Yep, I have officially decided. I'm stopping teaching and returning to lab work. At least for now. I will be starting Dec. 1st at Heinz as a ketchup quality tester. It's going to be a much more relaxing experience than working with the kids and even though I'm adding travel time, I'm losing all the homework. I just really didn't want to be sitting at my computer working on school stuff every night after Tigger is back in the country. I don't want to come home with a headache from their noise and behavior and be grumpy that I still have so much to do before bed (that I don't get paid for). I want to come home in a great mood and say, "What shall we do tonight?" I want the rexation that comes from guilt free down time.
Right now any moment I'm not working on school stuff is time I'm guilty for b/c there is always more needs done.
Time when I'm not talking to tigger is time I'm guilty for b/c I don't give him enough attention and he's so far away.
Time when I'm not reading a book or relaxing for myself is (you guessed it) time I'm guilty over, b/c I know I need to take care of myself mentally and emotionally or I'll get physically sick. I know I'll be less stressed if I take the time to relax..
But this job affords me no time. First year teachers relax in the summer. Well nothing is worth this stress, this lifestyle. Not a whole summer off, not all the pay in the world. ESPECIALLY when 114/119 of my students are waste of carbon snot bags who will never amount to anything.
Grad school teaching will be another thing. Student who I don't have to mother and babysit. Even if they need it I'm not obligated by law to pamper them. Students who know how to sit down. Know how to follow direction. Students who act like students not escaped convicts.
Yeahh... That's a whole lot of bitter up there. I've learned so much in the last year(ish). I love to teach, I'm good at teaching. I'm not good at punishing, I don't love to deal with disrespect from people 1/2 my age and 1/10 my intelligence.
This new job will be awesome. Hopefully it will hold me over until grad school and the ultimate goal? College professor.
I have more to say but I'm too tired atm. Was out gaming late. So perhaps another update when I wake up sometime tomorrow afternoon. ;-P




There aren't emoticons happy enough to express my happiness! 
